I grew up in the church. Every week we sang hymns. For the most part I thought they were boring and dull. I was a young.
On Easter we sang a hymn that we sang so many times but one year it hit me hard. I wasn’t listening to the tune or the organ. For the first time I noticed the words. These words made no sense to me. I should say, made no sense logically.
The hymn was “And Can It Be”. If you are not familiar with the words here is the section:
And can it be that I should gain
An int’rest in the Savior’s blood?
Died He for me, who caused His pain
For me, who Him to death pursued?
Amazing love! How can it be, That Thou, my God, shouldst die for me?
The words that struck me so hard that Easter morning was, “Died He for me, who caused His pain. For me, who Him to death pursued? Amazing love! How can it be, That Thou, my God, shouldst die for me?”
I found myself holding back tears that day as I do now. Who dies for someone who caused you pain? Who dies for one who betrays you, sins against you, and ignores you? For some reason it overwhelmed me. It became real how much Jesus loves me even though I had showed him so little love.
As I became s father, I better understood how you would die for someone who causes you pain. No matter how my sons behaved, no matter if they caused me immeasurable pain, I would lay down my life without a thought to save theirs.
Once again, that drove home even deeper God’s love for us. We are His children. It is not just words said but we are truly His children and He longs for us to come to Him and to be embraced by that love.
If Jesus is truly our Lord and Savior we can sing the last verses strong and loud. It doesn’t matter if I can hold a tune or not. I shout out this verse in praise to a loving Father, amazing Savior and an ever so present Holy Spirit.
Long my imprisoned spirit lay,
Fast bound in sin and nature’s night;
Thine eye diffused a quick’ning ray—
I woke, the dungeon flamed with light;
My chains fell off, my heart was free,
I rose, went forth, and followed Thee.
No condemnation now I dread;
Jesus, and all in Him, is mine;
Alive in Him, my living Head,
And clothed in righteousness divine,
Bold I approach th’ eternal throne,
And claim the crown, through Christ my own.”
Amazing love how can it be that thou my God shouldst die for me.